i am never a person who worries too much about my safety... ive always thought that "nothing ventured nothing gained..."
i am now in a talk talking bout safety in a workplace.. he is talking so much bout safety on a construction site and things like that.. im curious.. does he think he is talking to construction workers? i have no idea why he is talking bout safety boots and gas masks to students..? so i thought, i should turn on my laptop and write somtin on my blog....
5 minutes have past... he is still talking about ear protection... maybe i can wear that to class.... maybe on presentation days... that could be useful.
im thinking of why the university suddenly thought of organizing this talk... i think, after the incident when 2 of my friends where trapped in the elevator a month ago, the uni. is scared of getting sued. so they thought of doin this to make it seem like they care of our safety... oh! i think that is it! im sure of it! politics!
"i dh paham sgt u camne... i dh lama kenal u nie." "tak yah la nk ckp cam tue, mcm la ak br kenal u smlm.."
i hate this two sentences.
i dont believe in it... i wont believe in it... and i apologize to anybody who i ever said this to...
i cant imagine anybody to noe u well enough to ever say that... even if u are frens since like 4ever... i dont think this 2 sentences can ever be said, PERIOD! i cant even say that to my best fren whom ive known since primary school... wat more to a person i just knew a for a few years...
a person can change, a person will change, sad, but true...
i am no longer the person i was in school and i believe everybody is the same... it may not be a big difference but the change is still there..
why? i blame it on the environment and surroundings.. coz when ever we move to a new place, we will most probably change to adapt to the new environment. this can happen without even the person himself noticing..
i recently realised this when i had to meet up with a few school friends... i just feel so different and i had a really difficult time trying to talk as i dont think we have anytin in common anymore... even tho we were actually really close back then..
this is maybe, a problem i alone am facing... if so, plz tell me ur view... coz i really think i am at fault here...
coz im a firm believer of 'a friend will always be 4ever a friend'
but people do change and we do grow apart... that is how life goes... i guess.
it has been a really artsy week for me... i went to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang last sunday... i was on Valentines Day, (not like it matters..) the play was so gooD! the stage was magnificent! the actors was great especially the characters of Patih and Bayan... i love that the play tells about the sacrifices done in the name of love. eg. Bayan was willing to kill herself to protect Gusti
all in all, i just LOVE the way they told the story about the relationship of Gusti and Bayan. i think its both lovely and sad at the same time
stephen rahman was just ok, for me... he didnt actually blew my mind away... he was in other words - mediocre.
Tiara was actually quite good. her performance was believable. her dancing was quite ok as well... i just wish that she would have more parts not being alone or with Hang Tuah..
in a nutshell, the play was good, the stage effect was great, the actors was ok, the props was repetitive, i think the play was good because of the supporting casts, the dance sequences could have been better, i hope this play will generate lots more big scale stage productions...
yesterday i went with EIE+2 to watch a theatre. Entitled "women and Independence" i dont actually see anything in the play relating to the topic directly but it was entertaining to watch none the less. the play was performed by IIU students. there were two stories,
'it takes two to tango' tells a story about two married couple who struggles with marital issues...
the second 'aduhai...soto!' tells the story of a community that tackles the issue of pre-marital sex, teen pregnancy, and family values...
both was entertaining and full of values to learn from... all the actors were actually pretty good. watching theatre got me thinking of how much work it takes to stage one.. how many people it takes to make it as smooth as possible... something could go wrong and 'puff' the whole play is ruined... i wish i could witness one..hehe
i once wished that i could join aand act in a stage production.. i still do.. i now realise that my time is runing out and i should really make it happen soon... but, i am now perfectly content with dancing i dont want to be greedy... you shouldnt be too... im a firm believer of being good at what u love, learn and practice till u get it mastered... yeah, yeah... i now that people say that it is never to late to try, but i cant imagine if i start working oneday, to be SIMPLY doin theatre at the same time... nah...
for those who dont noe... im a dancer... primarily malay traditional dances... i might not be best one out there, but i love to do it none the less.... rite now im a dancer for my university...
there are many challenges in relation to this pastime. especially if u are a muslim.. the most significant one is when guys are directly labeled as softies and homos when they like to dance... i cant actually blame them, coz this fact is mostly true coz from my experience performing for shows, i found that most of the male dancers out there are like that... u have no idea how many times i have been appoached by a man, how many dreadful sms's i gotten from a dude asking to be a friend... asking if i was seeing anybody, asking if i have been dancing long. OMG! it was so dreadful! dont try and make small talk with me coz i noe all u want to do is to try and get inside my pants! there are also a few that actually really nice and didnt try anythin weird
but that will not stop me from doin what i love.
dance is a form of expression of delicate movement... a twist of a wrist, a slight jerk of the head, a bend of the knee, a stare of the eyes, a smirk of the mouth, anythin even remotely visible to the eye can make it of break it for a dancer.
i love it coz malay traditional dances are like any other traditional dance, it tells a story.
it can be a story of a princess getting ready to meet her prince
it can be a story of a group of friends playing
it can also be a story about birds flying and playing freely in the sky.
my love for dance can never be over shadowed by the fact that i can be labeled by those who does not understand that this art which is almost forgoten by our generation... my dance is strictly for the art.
coz i noe... that there are many people out there who love the thought of dancing but are not able to SIMPLY bcoz of physical, mental and also due to religious reasons...
yes i noe that as a muslim we are not to be celebrating V-Day. but i cant but help to imagine how it would be like to celebrate the day. walks on the beach...(saw it on a movie) goin to a theme park... giving flowers and gifts to each other... just spending time with a loved one is SIMPLY enough...
then i got thinking, i shouldnt celebrate valentines day! coz i can express love any day of the year... i dont need this so called day to show my appriciation to my frens and family...
a day spent doin laundry can be a memorable day if its done with somebody... with that said, i cant remember when was the last day i did my laundry. hahaha...
this have been so hactic these past few days.... sleepless nights seems to past by unnoticed.... and i just dont have the energy to even care.
i now have new found respect for those who can keep this up without any complain...
im goin to watch PGL this saturday and i cant wait... i really need this for myself. just to have the time for myself is devine these days... have u ever experienced this feeling..?
there was once a tyme when i was so "not well"... that i left my groupmates in the middle of the night, leavin my team speechless, presentation not done, panel not done, with the presentation tomorow...!
i went back to my room and was in lullaby land in 5 minutes...
i really regret wat happened that day... i was really tired and i was actually in the cafe trying to finish the panels for presentation but my laptop brokedown and the document got lost somwhere in hell, i suppose.. i would really like to apologize to my teammates for being such a crappy leader.
tomorrow is goin to be another presentation day... we actually presented last week but the lecturers suddenly are not satisfied with wat they have presented which they approved beforehand....(i can never understand the otak of a lect.) i was furious! but life moves on... i noe that there are a lot of people who suffers from unreasonable lecturers syndrome... eg.my sis....
i dont want my kids to ever experience these kind of people... with no manners, no ettiques, no respect towards students...
if god permits, i would love to be an educator... lecturer? ustaz? nah...
i want to a normal teacher, teaching in highschool... i dont noe why, i just do... just maybe when a student misbehaves i could just SIMPLY give him a long, tight SLAP!
This post is dedicated to all my frens who have been with me for the past 20 years of my life...
Being a friend means mastering the art of timing.
There is a time for silence.
A time to let go and allow people to hurt themselves into their own history.
And a time to pick up the pieces when its over.
-Gloria Naylor
Alone we can do so little, together we can do so much. -Helen Keller
No person is your friend who demands your silence or denies your right to grow.
-Alice Walker
i think if its at all possible,
your best friend and you owe it to each other
to make some space just to be alone together again,
That way, you can talk a bout what you were,
and that feels good.
You ca also talk about what you are - thats trickier,
but if you're lucky, that feels good, too.
-Elizabeth Berg
Laughter is not at all a bad beginning for a friendship, and it is by far the best ending for one. -Oscar Wilde
A mile walked with a friend contains only a hundred steps.
-Russian Proverb
In my friend, i find a second self.
-Isabel Norton
With every friend i love who has been taken into the brown bosom of the earth
a part of me has been buried there,
but their contribution to my being of happiness,
strength and understanding remains
to sustain me in an altered world.
-Helen Keller
It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.
-William Blake
(belive me, i would know! ive been there...)
When you're down and troubled,
and you need some love and care,
and nothing is going right,
close your eyes and think of me
and soon i will be there to brighten up even your darkest night.
You just call out my name and you know wherever i am,
I'll come running to see you again....
You've got a friend.
-Carole King
Autumn Landscape
There are no strangers here - only friends i havent met.
-Anonymous
If you want happiness for an hour - take a nap,
If you want happiness for a day - go fishing,
If you want happiness for a month - get married,
If you want happiness for a year - inherit a fortune,
If you want happiness for a lifetime - help someone else.
-Chinese Proverb
I can say that my friends are the defining point that makes me, me.
I learn from them,
they learn from me,
i eat with them,
i go to classess with them,
i laugh with them,
i go shoppin with them,
i experience life with them,
i write my lifes story with them being among the main characters...
You are SIMPLY a part of my life.
and im a part of yours.
-Esmael Yahya
this post is made out of questions that i answered by using the songs out of my mp3... i just thought that this is funny and i just wanna put it here...
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? tattoo - jordin sparks (wat u have just said is forever tattooed to my brain!)
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? act 5 - Nell (my personality is a big stage production and im the lead actor)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? sixteen going on seventeen - The sound of Music OST (im physically am not the age of seventeen but my mind is still is!)
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Everything - SS501 (everything in my life is so precious and i am tankful for every blessing god have given me.)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Sentimental City - Baek Ji Young (im very sentimental of life and the world??)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Dont Stop - Rain (dont stop being frens and dont stop being me, i guess?)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? With You - Chris Brown (i must think a lot about spending time with that special person out there, whoever u are...)
WHAT IS 2+2? touch - Amerie (maybe i can touch the equation and answer it better...)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Tangisan Marhaenis - Hattan (i would certainly cry day and night if i lose her...)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Never can say goodbye - Diana Ross and The Supremes (i can never say goodbye to her as i want to spend all my time with her? hahaha!)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? All Cried Out - Allure (my life is a story full of tears and dissapointments but no more! NO MORE TEARS!!)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Janji - Sofaz (i want to be a person i always promised myself to be...)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Snow on the Sahara - Anggun (wat is that suppose to mean?)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? Im Your Lady - Celine Dion (Maybe its my wife's fav song?)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Leave Me Alone - Pink (stop appearing in my dreams and leave me alone!)
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? Stand by Me - The Temptations (thats a really weird hobby...)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? Manpower - Morning Musume (im full of power under this not so manly exterior?)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? Cindai - Siti Nurhaliza (no comment!)
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN? Tell Him - Celine Dion (tell him what?)
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY? All The Love in The World - The Corrs (all the love in the world is like so beautiful to witness, i hoping ill be able to find it as well)
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? I Am - SS501 (I am the pimp, Gurls! hahaha!!)
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET? 10 minutes - Lee Hyori (i regret havin to practise for months and not being to perform during the day it really counts!)
HOW WILL YOU DIE? Crazy - Britney Spears (im gonna die going crazy? thats like sooo sad...)
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED? My Style - Black Eyed Peas (i will! at my own pace and my own style)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Stuck In the Middle - Mika (why? im not even the middle child?)
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? Ulek Mayang - Ella (Scary nyer!)
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST? All of your dreams - Shinhwa (ur dreams of the world scares me... take one step at a time, eh?)
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? Cinta Melankolia - Ann (wat does that mean? im gettin a headache making this list!)
WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS? Sunday Morning - Lily Allen (Ill be on leave till sunday morning la boss. so ask somebody else to finish ur damn report!)
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS? Kelabu - Adibah Noor (my future is still pretty much grey at this point... i hope ill find my calling soon)
as a conclusion, life is not always SIMPLY about the most obvious answers... its the about the journey u take to reach it, and the people u have it with...
Poppies sorri for the really awkward post a few days ago... hahaha... i was really under a lot of stress and i just wanted a way to curse out load (not literally).
so, today i want to list down 11 things that i really hate.. (in conjunction with my very stressful week)
1. i hate gaining weight (but its not like im doin anytin to stop it form happenening)
2. i hate not being to wake up in the morning coz i slept late the night before
3. i really hate crappy internet service (i cant rite on my blog and download stuff)
4. i hate that people sometimes ask me why i moved away from VI to TIKL
5. when throw away garbage in my car.. (i do have a window, guys! throw it outside!)
6. i hate waiting long for my food (its ok if the food is extremely good)
7. i hate that the washing machine at my home always ruin my clothes
8. i hate goin to the surau and then leaving with the scent of smelly feet
9. i hate staying up late not because i want to but bcoz i have to.. (example: doin a report on Jalan Ibrahim, Sg Petani!)
10. i hate that i dont have the tyme to enjoy myself anymore.
11. i hate that people dont understand that i can sometimes feel down and i dont want anybody to disturb me.
im a strong believer of culture, arts and education. i believe nobody should be deprived of these rights voluntarily or involuntarily.
strives to work for United Nations in the figth for the rights of education around the world.
Vincents Bedroom
